If you are my friend on Facebook, you already know what I am talking about!
I have felt a deep passion for homeschooling since the birth of my first child. I knew it was what I wanted for my family and I had big dreams!
What I didn’t know was that my husband did not share the same passion! As a matter-of-fact, it seemed like everything was turning him away from homeschooling. Over the years we have known a lot of families that homeschool. Unfortunately for me, some of those families have been way over the top (I say that with much love) – you know the ones. They believe (I’m not knocking that) that homeschooling is the only way. They believe that you are setting your children’s souls on fire if you send them to public school. Well, let’s just say this attitude scared the crap out of my husband. I will also note that at the end of the day, these kids look a lot like some of the “unchurched” kids I see on a daily basis.
Ok, so now that I have put that out there I guess I have to tell you what I believe. I believe that in everything I do, I am to honor the Lord. Whether I homeschool, use a private school, or send my children to public school. I am to be a light unto the world (as are my children if they are believers). I do not think that the Bible gives a specific COMMAND to homeschool. I do read that we are to train them up in the way they should go and that we should always speak of the Lord when we wake, lie down, walk along the way. Amazingly, though, I believe that our lives (as much as our mouths) are to mirror Christ. Just because someone else is teaching my child how to add fractions doesn’t mean I am any less of a mother or Christ follower! This scenario opens up opportunities that I would not have otherwise. Chances for me to be a witness, to love others, and teach my children how to live in the world without being of the world.
I can hear the arguments of those friends now… They are too young to do that; they will be torn apart. Well, that’s not what God told Timothy. I believe that if the foundation is strong at home, then the child will be fine. Not to mention trusting God for the protection of that child. I think it takes just as much faith to send my child to a public school as it does to homeschool them.
This brings me to where I stand now in my current situation. After homeschooling the boys for a week, my husband told me that he never wanted them to homeschool, but that he just wanted me to be happy (even though he didn’t believe it was what was best for them). I know, he is too sweet isn’t he?! I’m sure my crying, begging, and arguing had nothing to do with him caving time and time again! I realized that while I could find no direct command as to which way was right/wrong, there is a command to my husband to lead our home, and for me to submit to that. So, that’s what I did.
I. Submitted. To. HIM!
I have to trust God that my children will be protected. I also have to learn not to do things based on fear. I know God doesn’t want me to live like that. I was so afraid of public school. The shootings, the bullies, the embarrassing moments, I have to give all of that to God. I have to trust that even though those things God is working. It’s hard, and there have already been struggles, and it’s only day 4!
I am sharing this with you not to make myself feel better, but to reach out to anyone who is struggling with this decision. It is an important one! I would never steer you one way over another. I would only ask you to look at every angle, and God will show you what He has chosen for you!
Sometimes even Godly goals can become idols!
There is so much more I could write, but I guess I will end here for now! I have two girls that want my attention 🙂
But I did want to add, that God is so awesome! He gave Jordan a Christian teacher! She even leads an “F.R.O.G.” (Fully Rely on God) devotional every Wed. Morning! How cool is that?! I love it when I obey God, and he gives me glimpses of how great obedience can be!
God Bless You and have an amazing day!
PS: You will still see some awesome educational product reviews because I still love to teach my kiddos here at home too!
UPDATE: We have decided to start homeschooling again!